That's a toughie that I have been rolling in my mind for years.

How is it that my brother and I were both raised the same way but I always got in trouble and he never did? We don't share the same dad. I found out about five years ago that my real father has the same temperament as I do. But my mom left him when I was six months old. He never had anything to do with me.

So which is it? Did my parents just love my brother more? Or is it not my fault, it's just the way I'm made?

I think the latter, for the most part, is bull shit. It's more than my mom and dad. It's the teachers I had growing up, the people I hung out with, my next door neighbor, my cat dying when I was in first grade.

But then again, cancer and cholesterol can be hereditary? Why can't personality defunct be?

Who knows...I certainly don't. I'd like to think that it's not my fault...I was just made this way. But at the same time, does that mean I can't change?

I was born with a fence post up my ass...I never make a clear stand one way or another.